frikkin turned. frikkin twisted. frikkin confused.

yes, you read that right - i am so frikkin confused about everything right now. i dont know why, but things are starting to deviate me from the normal ones i used to.

1. Sibling-s? yes. when we watched Ghost Rider (btw, its a great movie) last monday, i feel so awkward bonding with them, knowing that i paid for their dinner and all,but then, it's not me with them. Got that? Para na kasi akong OP sa kanilang 2, like while we were walking, my bro takes my sister's shoulder and go somewhere, at ako, nakabuntot lang sa kanila. hindi nman ako ganito dati. sad thing isnt it? i really don't belong.

2. Friends-err. when we say friends-err, just like in physics, motion impends. eto na nman. i feel so weird opening up to them, and im opening up, to the ones i did not really got a chance to talk in person. my friends, sorry if i may say something, but im not like before.

3. HIM. oo, bakit siya na nman? my world is closed. my world runs through him, so now i feel deviated among other people. what an imbroglio, you may say. but, mind you, im getting some weird questions in my head right now, like the usual, "does he even care?" i know im not expecting anymore, but in my heart, a voice asks this stupid question, which turns me into a stupid person, doing some stupid things, hoping some stupid things will happen to me as i walk my stupid life. stupidest person ever, for the record, IT IS ME.

4. G-P-A. low low low grades i got from midterms. the end. goodbye trinity.

5. Anorexic? or acidic? i am so frikkin thin. actually, this thin shape made life for me much more miserable than everyone else.

hey yen, have a little faith. :)

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Ama, tulungan nio po nawa ako sa aking pag-aaral,

kayo na po ang bahala sa akin.

Patnubayan niyo po akong lagi na, at nawa,

mabigyan po ako ng buhay at lakas na nanggagaling sa inyo.

Ilayo niyo po ako sa tukso, ilayo niyo po ako sa mga mata ng kaaway.

At tulungan niyo pong mabalik ko ang aking kalusugan.

AMEN.